am i pathetic?
to cling on to these
to validate me
i cannot find this in reality
i cannot find what i truly need
am i lonely
peaking at pages of faces that i’ll never know
the growth is slow
the tree outside my window
may be wiser
i sprawl myself spread across the bed
glued to my macbook air
this online community
makes me happy
it is living live that wears me down
is that ok?
is that acceptable?
if you are trapped in a social means that does not allow you to find what you want outside of the scope of existence,
i’m scrolling down my list of residence
do i merely crave a change of environment?
i have tried and initiated
i’m a go getter
i hate waiting
but i await for something to sweep me off my feet
i do all the sweeping
cleaning up my brain space to bravely admit
i am not content with how things are.
but i fear too much to venture far.